A little old story

Staring at the computer, I sometimes think of you

Never really miss you, but I ofter think of you

Never wanna ask “Will you marry me?”,

Just wanna say, I loved you the most

Seems you are afraid of your boyfriend

Or like my love no more

Held your tear when you cried

walked with you when you were tired and sleepy

Held your shoulder when you were down

Singing each others’ favorite songs we spent time on phone

And now, you don’t even look at me

I don’t remember my princess any more

I just see you go, not even a good bye

I stood, I waited, I cant

I am leaving, I am leaving you now.

Long ago and yesterday

Me : Hello

She : Hey..

a little blah blah….

She : So, you found someone?

Me : No, not planning yet.

She : Damn, so you mean you reject me?

blah blah… end the call

That was a little looooooong ago.

Yesterday, when I met Chan…

a few regular conversations.

Me : You know, ….place here,  the above conversation with ‘She’.

Me : What could have that meant?

Chan… : Didnt you understand, might be she was interested in you.

Me : A confused look and “Gawwd…..”

A few other conversations, a latte, a Red Devil ice-cream and a gentle walk back to respective places.

Not this way..

It is not gonna work out this way, things have to change, I have to change more. I’ve got to save more energy, live like the way I have always dreamt of.

I am ok. I have to start taking care of my health now. Seriously. I have to look the age I am, look the guy I want to be. Perform expectionally well. Be the trend setter.

Might be I neednot forget a few things, but for sure I’ve got to remember what am I here for. What is the purpose of doing things, what is the purpose of having a free mind.

Where are my dreams, what am I gonna do. I want to perform better. I want to live better.

I will. I will.

They say, you’ve got to have guts to dream. I now realise why do they say so.

It’s true,. You’ve got to have guts to dream, and patience to make them come true.

I am not just this,

I ain’t gonna live like this,

There is better, bettet alot.

I am gonna hold my mind,

hyponotise it, make it do what i say.

Who are you? no-one, just a little rat s#!/

I aint gonna give a damn, I aint gonna care.

To hell with what you say.

I am gonna dream, walk on ma dreams

I am gonna live, I am gonna love.

Who are you? just little s#!^^!#& maggot..

I aint gonna care, I aint.

Look at me, look into my eyes.

To hell with you,

just keep watching, I am gonna be happier, I am wiser.

I am gonna be rich. just keep watching,

i wont let these lines on my palms decide my faith.

I trust the lord, He gives when you do and ask.

I am gonna work, get what i need.

Who are you? no one, but just little piece of dog S#!^.

A requirement

Dear Reader

I am a Software Eng., , I have a requirement.

Sometimes when I don’t work on weekends, I get very bored, enough of movies I have seen on my laptop and in multiplexes. I’d like to have someone’s company when I want to go out or just sit and talk for sometime.

Actually I need a bunch of friends or probably someone who can inspire me to work on new technologies in Java or talk about those, I stay alone. Many of my friends actually are getting married or getting busy with their girl or boy friends.

At work I have people but I can’t get along with them, I am treated as a “Senior” here and……………….

I am a good guy.

I have a few friends, but speaking long times on the phone would not do good for my ears, brain and my pocket. All of them are sweethearts.

Well, I stay in Hyderabad, India.

God!!!!!!!!! what did i just write…..?? holy crap.