Well it is all about realisations you see.
Tauseef, as I was wished that I needed a group of good friends, as time passed by I realised that there are very few who care for relationships and the rest are just people who you dont need so much to care about. You cant associate your happiness to their presence or absense. I came off it and then was a stage when I thought I needed someone to love me, someone I’d really connect to and share all my feelings. I thought that would make me happy.
Well I dont say we dont need friends or people who love us. It is just I dont want to say that my happiness depends on them being with me, or thier positive presence in my life.
I am as happy as I should be, all you need is just the will to be happy.
I still remember those lonely times I used to sulk, wondering why no one would give me a call or no one would say “I was missing you.”. That should never mean I am not a good guy. I am a good guy, as good as you’d expect a good friend to be. I say it because I know it. I know it because people say it and people say it because I am.
Well its all that I want to be happy and it is as simple as that. I want to be and when I want something I a right behind it, not gonna leave until I get it.
My happiness is in doing what I want to do. Well making others happy is just a part of the day, you try to make them happy, if they arent, I guess you dont need to go behind them, its their happiness after all.
I have realised that no matter what, it is you who is responsible for all that you have and all that you will have. My happiness cant depend on decisions of others. Not at all. No way.
As they say “You get exactly what is written for you, nothing more or nothing less”. and “If you dont have something, might be you just dont need it right now.”
I have realised that it was what I wanted, all I wanted is to live on my terms and I mean “my” terms. And I am Alhamdulillah doing it and InshaAllah will keep doing it.
Pride and Honor
Tauseef.
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