The thing

The situation has been weird lately, now that my wedding has been called off and friends, acquaintances are coming to know of it, all they just say is “All that happens is for good”, “Take it in a positive sense”. Yes, I do understand that, but you know what, I have at least that much faith in God that I can understand that fact. Dude, bro you are not helping me here, please say something I don’t already know. I mean it is not going to be easy on me getting over it, no seriously I mean it. It’s been over a week and I haven’t reacted to that thing yet, all I feel is anger and disgust, should I be feeling sad, depressed? What should be my exact feeling? I am still confused about what to feel.

I am tired of all these people who say “Chill”, “think positive”, “happens for good”. I know all those things damn it!, I appreciate that you are trying to console me, but don’t you know I know all these things and you got to come up with something more than that to console me. If you can’t then please don’t try to because you feel like.  I don’t mind you not talking to me. Just because we know each other doesn’t mean you have to console me.

“I don’t know what to say”, “I feel sad and bad”, “I know you are not alright”. My three good friends told those to me.

I had seen this coming, the calling off thing, but yes even that I don’t know how hard it is going to be on me. Things like keep your heart scared for a long time.

Let me try and handle it.